An Interview with Amoda Maa, written by Monika Wilkens, published in FREE Magazine, Spring 2014
In a tent in Ängsbacka sits a dark-haired woman dressed in light clothes who is holding satsang, we in the audience sit below on the floor and listen to her whilst she talks about the awakening of our time. Amoda Maa Jeevan looks to be in her 30s but we are told that she is over 50 years old, she looks almost like a Holy Madonna and feels fragile and strong at the same time. Amoda is a spiritual teacher, an author and the founder of the Foundation for Conscious Change that offers a worldwide teaching.
“We stand on the threshold of a revolution in consciousness that has the power to transform our world! We need to wake up from our slumber and forgetfulness and remember who we really are. It is up to each of us to choose whether we want to be involved in the change”, she says.
Amoda’s own personal journey that led to her becoming a spiritual teacher is a phoenix -like story. Her childhood and much of her adult life was a struggle with traumatic events and recurrent depression . She is a Londoner and had a doctorate in Psychology when she began to have mystical and visionary experiences that changed her whole life. This led to Amoda abandoning her academic career and begin her journey towards her inner depths. She was a devoted seeker and after a period in which she traveled and tried various methods of spirituality and self-development - life itself became eventually her guru. “It has been like a crucifixion and a resurrection. I came to the conclusion that all is One and that the mystery is to live an authentic life awake in the middle of everyday noise. To fully participate in life's marketplace with both heaven and hell - nakedly, honestly, in the presence and vulnerability - it's beautiful!”
Amoda says that we must allow ourselves to fail, over and over again, that sorrow and pain are no worse experiences than joy and happiness - everything needs to be enabled in order for us to fully be present in the moment. “As long as we have this body and live on this earth, we also experience all human emotions and aspects. But you have to stop creating stories of suffering and accept that life looks like it does - like a roller-coaster! Your ability to face everything in depth and not make a story of it, determines how present you are”, she says.
Amoda talks about how she first looked for explanations and solutions to her difficulties in life, including in psychology. After these experiences she went to seek spiritual solutions to her problems. At first it seemed that she had found "it" and was happy for a while, but then she was back in the pain again. It repeated itself many times, constantly trying new ways to personal happiness. Eventually she gave up, turned around and faced life in all its shades, without an agenda of wanting to control or "fix" what was happening. “It was a kind of death - I sank deep into the abyss of the unknowness of it all, and then it was as if the umbilical cord to the suffering was cut. It was a profound surrender into death - and into life itself. Like jumping from an airplane but never hitting the ground, only falling freely!”
“When we have an agenda of how things should be, or how we should feel, this prevents us from being fully present. Giving up the agenda gives us the flow and freedom even if life is turbulent”, she says. After this, Amoda experienced an even stronger sense of awakening. There was a profound experience that made her decide to devote herself to sharing a message of freedom. But even on the path of enlightenment, there are pitfalls she says: “It is a great challenge to not stick to the awakening and make it a new form of identity once you have had such an experience. It's the same thing there - drop it and let life flow - you do not know what the end result will be when everything has been burned up!”
Amoda says that even the ego serves a purpose in the spiritual journey. The ego acts as an evolutionary process that operates on the path of spiritual development. The ego seeks to avoid suffering and eventually this desire to move beyond suffering becomes a new perspective that allows the possibility of awakening”, she says. “Ego also protects the physical form. The idea that we should kill the ego is not what I am advocating, even when we are enlightened we still need the ego to function. It is both a necessary tool and a catalyst for awakening. The important difference is whether we identify with the ego or not”, she says.
“We are about to move from a horizontal to a vertical way of thinking and living”, says Amoda . “In the horizontal world we seek love, affirmation, power and wealth from the external world and we are ego-oriented in the constant search for happiness, but none of this can fill the void that we have within us. Upon awakening everything stops for a moment and the mind rests in the present and we turn inward and look with love and with heart's eyes. In the vertical world is no separation between me and you, or between God and the world. Here is the very essence of life. Life moves through you, as you. Everything is God - there is nothing that exists nothing that is not this. When we recognize ourselves as love, we become free. Then we are in right relationship to everything!”
Original article in Swedish, read here http://www.free.se/Media/1401/AmodaMaaJeevan.pdf